Most of my current readers are here because of Puppy Doe. I just got some news, that I am excited to start writing about, but I have to get something off my chest first. I hope you don’t mind if I blog about other things. If you have read my old stuff, you know I blogged about whatever is on my mind. At the time it was mostly Twilight. Today I need to vent about something that just happened in what I thought was a support group. I won’t name the group or the people. I’m not trying to throw anyone under the bus. I’m just venting. I’ll understand if you want to look away now.

My day was going great. I recently started a fund raiser to help me through some rough times, being unemployed. Today, I am setting up social media and inviting people to follow me. As I am a writer, and NaNoWriMo starts in a few short days, I decided to raise funds for NaNoWriMo, too. My promise is to give back to the NaNoWriMo community by donating to NaNoWriMo.org, when my fundraiser is complete. I think it’s Win-Win. Thinking that my fellow writers were the best bet for helping me spread the word, I posted on the group’s page. I did not ask for donations from them. I asked them to “help me spread the word,” and posted a link to my fundraiser page (you’ll also notice a donation button on the front page). I thought they would enjoy that I was going to donate to NaNoWriMo. Boy, was I wrong. I got a scathing comment saying that this was, “wildly inappropriate,” and that I, “need to stop making excuses and get a job.”

Ouch. I have been job hunting and interviewing since June, when getting rehired by my old employer fell through. It took two months for them to tell me that they could not take me back. Naturally, in that time, I was not job hunting. Since then, I have been though. I even got hired at one point, but my employer exercised their right to say it wasn’t a good fit within a few days. It’s a Right To Work state. It happens.

I am sure that the people who scolded me did not follow the link and read my letter, in which I explain what I am asking for and why. I hope so anyway. If not, these people must have a very low opinion of crowd funding to begin with. I think it’s great. I would much rather someone get help from people who choose to help, than go on Welfare and make everyone pay. The karma just seems better that way, to me.

Yep, it’s a ramble. Sorry about that. You’ll find that I do that sometimes. It helps me get my thoughts in order. Not all of my writing is as organized as I would like.

Anyway, I removed my post from the page. After the long scolding, someone Liked the scolding I got and then continued with a scolding of their own. I do feel bad that I offended them, but I think if they had actually read my plea they would not have been offended. It’s not like I don’t want to do my part for society, and I’m just trying to sit around and collect money. The Universe just seems to be telling me that I need to be writing right now. Job after job that I am SO qualified for are refusing interviews or giving the job to others. Meanwhile, total strangers are finding my blog and saying things like, “I hope you are a writer.” I’m in a real pickle. If I am to write, I need funds….hence a fundraiser. Being fully aware that I can’t just panhandle to support myself, I added the charity piece. It’s no lie. I fully intend to give to charity. It’s something I need to make me feel better about asking for help, which I have been avoiding doing for months, and to help hold me accountable for the writing I need to do.

I am putting it out in the Universe that they never have to rely on the kindness of strangers, because karma isn’t a bitch, as it is so often said. It is a mirror.

Thanks for reading this far,

Christa

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